You Will Get Your Wings Tio Chicky

So, here's the thing. I don't even know what to say because this is all brand new to me. No words can even come out of my mouth. The only thing that comes out are tears from my heart that come out of my eyes. I've never had anyone die in my family or really know of anyone to feel the pain. this is so weird I woke up today in hopes it was a bad dream but guess what? it's not. 

 Tio Chicky your not here, I wish I had magical hair like repunzle in tangled so I could have healed you and sing and then you would have been all better again. This isn't the fairytale chapter i wanted in my book, because my ohana isn't here. Yesterday when I was told you were not here my heart stopped and all I thought of was you screaming at the bottom of the stair case "ma! Come here please!" And laughing because you would just tell grandma you were messing with her and she would get mad then you would really tell her you wanted her to go eat with you or something. 

 Remember that time I broke your scooter? Yeah me to because I hid in the bathroom because you were going to kick my ass. Remember that time you blew up your hand on the Fourth of July? Oh yeah that was every year. You like fire works I guess because you kept doing.

 Remember that time you invited me with you and all the dads and kids to the Harlem globe trotters game but I didn't want to go because everyone was going with there dad, and I was sad and backed out because I didn't have a dad to go with? You went in my room and said "get your ass up lets go mijo, I am your dad us Carrasco's are all here for one another. Your my son just like all these other damn kids" 

 My Friend Nicholas told me its okay to cry just to let it all out and even thought I don't understand right now, that it will be okay because everything happens for a reason. Thanks Nicholas.

 I just know come Christmas time I will be ringing every bell come my way because like the say, every time a bell rings an angle gets his wings and I want you to have the most biggest most awesome wings up there, because after all your a Carrasco. I'm pretty sure my Tio Chicky got me into Disney he loves Disney as much as me even more, remember that time I watched the lizze mcgurie movie on VHS and watched it everyday? Yeah then you had angle hide it because that's all I would watch.

 Well you are one of a kind we don't usually subtract in our family, so who knows what to do now? There was 6 and now there's 5 kids. We love you more then words will ever be able to explain. Every time I watch George Lopez ill think of you because you love him a lot and talk like him. Or even a Disney movie, yeah you like those to.

 Okay, so ill see you later okay? I don't ever say goodbye because good bye is forever and I know ill see you later or talk to you soon so Lucy and I both love you.

Happy For You Nicholas

 I'm so very happy for my dear friend Nicholas. A big move so fast it's already been a month now and your coming a long way growing and a new car and so much more. I'm very happy as long as you are happy that's all that matters because that makes me happy. 

 I want nothing but the best for you in life and for you to be able to breathe and just be who you are and all that you want to be. You have one huge heart filled with so much love, hope, and kind words that can make anyone's day where ever you go in life. 

 I hope you always be you smile like a half moon( that's really big by the way, I mean have you seen a half moon talk about huge!) and believe in you and if you ever think about giving up don't. I know you have so many that care about you in the world! 

 Most importantly I'm here and Lucy but she will just eat your food. But I'm right here for you and not ever going to want to leave your side from the ups and downs ill be here. Always, my ohana. 

Happy Birthday Mother!

Oh how I love my Tia lupe my mother of mine! She's literally mother hen. You are the best woman we all know I mean besides grandma she can't even remember when she texted Someone it's okay, we still love her. I love you to! My little milk shake you! 

 You have taught me so much and yet so little, oh no! Which means I still need you to teach me more stuff like how to pay bills on time, how to change my kids pamper( that is when ever I get a human child) I also need you to show me how to make rice without it burning at the bottom you know like without it sticking or getting all black and gross then I'm all like ugh forget this I'm throwing away the pot after I sever everyone burnt rice. I don't have time to scrub this I'm going to hit the gym. Or how about who will teach me what's good wine and how I should not say bad words when I'm nervous. Or what about if someone leaves me in a house all alone again and then I have to sit watching the darn twilight movies and don't know which movie goes in order! Only you can prevent a forest fire. Just kidding you don't burn things you make good food omg like that one time you made me that food you know that one? or how about that you know I always want cereal before bed and can't drink regular milk because ill poop or vomit all over the place! Who will tell my future husband that? Stop trying to be crazy and all grown its making me sad and sweat from my eyes your growing up so much! 

 So yeah I think that's pretty much all the stuff you will have to teach me I know your just 21 but hey, someone has to teach this 5year old some new things and how to wipe my ass from time to time.  

 I love you so much! Hope you have a wonderful birthday month and you smile big and bright and shake your booty which reminds me why is your but so big and everything I eat go to my but? See look inappropriate things I say! Okay Lucy and I love you so very much besos!!

Lucky To Have Moms Thank You

So thankful to have so many woman in my life i don't ever really talk about it but I don't have a mom my grandparents and family members raised me all over but I'm so very thankful for all of them especially my Tia lupe I love her she's my mom. I love you all thank you.

Congrats On Your Engagement Ericka!

Ahh I'm so excited for my friend ericka! We were at work a couple days ago and her boyfriend came in and told me he was going to pop the question! Ahh you guys can not even believe how excited I was it was so hard for me not to tell her ahh I was on air and it wasn't even for me.

 HE was going to do it Sunday but I can already tell he was so very happy he was telling everyone! So happy and excited he did it when we were at work that day, he told me he got on his knee and told her and she said yes!  Ahh I'm excited even writing this. There so in love it's magical I can tell they love each other so much every time they see each other they just look into each others eyes and its like the first time they've meet all over again. They already have a little family and now this, I can't wait she's getting her happily ever after with her Prince Charming. I'm so happy for you my dear friend much love from me and my dog Lucy! Ahh still excited.

 P.s I was telling everyone and yelling all over work when she got engaged! 

  

Happy Birthday Terri!

I love you so very much I can't believe your so young but growing so fast you make me so happy whenever you call or text me sometimes your the only one. We're always there for one another and I love you I'm honestly going to be so sad when you go away I can't bare it. But for now I will cherish every time that I have you and tell you I love you and I look up to you so very much my dear cousin! Your so smart brave honest and always you and very dedicated! Happy birthday from Lucy and I we love you! And all the Disney princess in the Disney kingdom Ariel says hi!:) I have her shell phone number!

11 states now!

@ItGetsBetter: This week is off to an amazing start. Congratulations to Delaware for being the 11th state to legalize same-sex marriage! #lgbt

Happy Birthday Uncle Jessie!

Wishing my uncle Jessie a very happy birthday! I swear I'm going to find a pic when he was younger he looked just like uncle Jessie from full house no lie! Since I am Mexican we say Tio Jessie but I say uncle Jessie because he reminds me so much of uncle Jessie from full house.

Here's to a very kind uncle and such a sweetheart he's always there and always will be sometimes I like to get angry with him when I was younger but it's only because he was so right all the time and in then end he would always say "I love you mijo, no mater what were family I will always be here."he's like the father I never had. So here's to a great father figure and dad and uncle,son, friend brother and so much more!

Lucy and I love you uncle Jessie! Happy birthday!

Happy Birthday Little Jessie

Happy birthday to my cousin little Jessie! He turns 17 today we call him little Jessie because he's dad who is my uncle Jessie (by the way doesn't that remind you of full house and he also has hair like uncle Jessie! Haha) well happy birthday cousin we have grown up since the day you moved to Chicago and we played and grandmas house and our sleep overs and making fun of Donna and all that lol! Hope you have a great week!

Lucy and I love you so much!

Everything will be alright

You will all be a okay don't you worry my little gum drops! I know it's hard to be sad sometimes when something doesn't work out with that someone special but remember that you all are special you, me or anyone we will find love just remember to spread as much as you can because love is powerful is the most powerful thing in the world! We all deserve out happily ever after and I truly do believe there is someone out there for everyone. I love you!